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3/29/2012

Go Quiet


I wake up every day knowing I won’t find happiness. 
I keep and open mind and my mouth shut.

I feel as if I’m about to go to prison.
I wish time could stop.
I wish I actually had time to get used to everything.

I wish I could live my life in cafés, sipping on the bitter liquid, postponing a drag and talking to people. If life inside a university taught me anything, it certainly taught me sharing my opinions and thoughts on different aspects of art. I told a friend I should become a life counselor – I hand out good advice, I’m a mess when it comes to my own existence.

The feelings, the experiences, the images, people, they will all become, with time - once they become part of the past - censored material, pretty memories. Life becomes a projection, within its temporal boundaries.

I hate to go back in time and admit I was once wrong. This is why, with every event in my life, I try to imagine it was probably for the best, imagine the good action it could bring.  If everything changes at some point, at least I know I once had depth.

I used to be in love – now I’m cynical.
Exit the wise, enter the wild. Or viceversa. 

                                                                            photo credit: Cristina Matei

3/15/2012

Rebelling Wives

                                                                    Melancholia - Lars von Trier, 2011

                                                   Marie Antoinette - Sofia Ford Coppola, 2006

                                                    Nunta de piatra - Dan Pita (part.II), 1973


Tristesse globale.
Lust for life or death.
Signs. Apocalypse.
Too much. Too little. Too late.

3/06/2012

When Someone Dies, You Up And Join The Circus


There’s this hypothetical bucket list I’ve set for myself, where most of the things are almost impossible to happen, such as seeing the Rio Carnival or riding on top of a train in India. Among those, it’s obvious you’ll mostly find my love for traveling and the ultimate journey is joining the circus. The dead inside, dirty but spectacular, also magical circus world.


• Water for Elephants

Jacob Jankowski is a Polish American veterinarian, barely out of college, whose parents die in a car accident. In a moment of despair and incapacity of seeing a light or a purpose, he hops on a train headed West. This train is not an ordinary train, but a moving circus, where he gets hired as the veterinarian. He has trouble adapting, the working men try to red light him (through him off the moving train) when he first hops on it, later on he gets to share a room with a performer which really upsets the performer at first, making Jacob’s life miserable. He falls in love with Marlena (one of the artists), but she’s married to August a paranoid schizophrenic. The story is set during the Great Depression, but is told through a 90 or 93 year old Jacob, who spends the last days of his life in a retirement home, reminiscing.
Even though in the end the circus falls apart, or rather goes bankrupt and the animals break free, the story has a happy ending in what concerns the love story.


• Carnivàle

This is an HBO television shows that I consider to be my second favorite TV show after Six Feet Under. The story is also set during the Great Depression and Dust Bowl and tells the story of Ben Hawkins, a young man who follows the circus that crosses his town after his mother passes away. He starts having prophetic dreams and an ability to cure illnesses and evil. His path crosses a man of God, preacher Justin Crowe who also has visions telling him to go against the young man. It’s a beautiful metaphor involving good and evil, God and the Antichrist.
The show was cancelled after the second season and this also culminates with the weird ending of the series, where neither good, nor bad wins.


 
• La Strada

This is a movie about a street performer who travels through Italy – Zampano (played by Anthony Queen) and a young woman whose sister used to be his assistant up to her death. Zampano comes to her family to ask for Gelsomina to replace her dead sister in the show. She’s a naïve young woman and gets attracted by this life, but he treats her as a brute and she easily looses her so called joie de vivre. After a series of unfortunate situations and conflicts, she even proposes marriage, but he refuses. He abandons her while she is sleeping, only to find the memory of Gelsomina a few years later with a song she used to sing. He finds out she died and cries in despair.


All of these three circus stories begin and end with death – physical or metaphorical. They speak of a world that looks appealing for the majority, because we barely know anything about it and can hardly touch it.

The circus is the ultimate frontier.